Definition of freedom
1 : the quality or state of being free: such as
a : the absence of necessity, coercion, or constraint in choice or action
b : liberation from slavery or restraint or from the power of another : INDEPENDENCE
c : the quality or state of being exempt or released usually from something onerous; freedom from care
d : unrestricted use; gave him the freedom of their home
e : EASE, FACILITY; spoke the language with freedom
f : the quality of being frank, open, or outspoken; answered with freedom
g : improper familiarity
h : boldness of conception or execution
2 a : a political right
b : FRANCHISE, PRIVILEGE
I respect and honor the men and women who have chosen to risk their lives and serve our country unconditionally. It takes a much different strength and will power than I possess. My brother has been in the air force since he graduated high school. He has sacrificed many of his freedoms for the overall freedom of our country and I honor him, and proud that he is my brother.
But I have been looking at freedom in a different way.
Freedom of time- and a lack of a schedule.
Freedom to travel- and be able to take my dog with me.
Freedom of financial obstacles- and able to give back to the community.
Freedom of self- destruction- and that confidence to know I AM someone!
Have you ever looked at freedom in that way?
What about freedom from that nasty voice in your head? The one that feeds you excuses and lies.
I know I am not the only one who lives with that voice.
I'm not quite sure when that voice really began to have such a loud, dominant say- but for the past 15 years, it's been hard to quiet that voice down.
When I was young, self- medicating was my way of quieting that voice. I had used pills, alcohol, and cocaine to try to momentarily stop the voice. I was usually so loud and obnoxious all you could hear was me.
I loved the be the life of the party. It made me feel like I was something, and I was able to shut up that voice.
That routine of partying got old and dangerous. It went on for years, somewhere around 14 on and off, some where more detrimental than others.
I finally realized that wasn't creating any real happiness. When I woke up, so did that voice, and it was usually loud with stories of regret and embarrassment from the night before.
Realizing I needed a drastic change.
I needed to leave that life behind.
Fortunate for the amazing support system that I have, not quite sure where I would be if it wasn't for some special people in my life.
That's when yoga came into my life.
That studio holds a special spot in my heart.
I just came to my mat.
I learned the poses, I sweat my ass off, I got sore muscles, and I loved every minute of it.
I'll admit- when I started, I started for the exercise, and the poses.
I did know that there was another component to it, and that is what I wanted to learn, but at first, it was about being active and taking my mind off of the alcohol.
When I finally understood what it meant to match the movement with the breath my whole practice changed.
It was enlightening, and freeing.
I wasn't sure many times what I was releasing, but I knew I was walking out of that yoga room feeling better. I always left something that didn't serve me. It was a way to work inward, but you didn't have to talk about it. The movements where doing the work and releasing those emotions.
I totally notice a huge difference when I don't make it to my mat.
I am a bitch.
I am really short with people, and I'm emotional. I have a problem holding onto a lot of emotions, so at least when I practice I can release some, but if I don't I'll usually end up crying or exploding.
Once I went through my 200 hr yoga training, I was in love with it all. I knew this was the life style change I needed. I needed to practice these sutras all day, everyday.
I needed to learn how to clear my mind, and make that voice be gone for good. I am constantly going to trainings and workshops, reading, and learning how I can grow. How can I be a better me than I was yesterday?
Figuring out what you want in life, and then figuring out a way to get it.
I learned it was okay to want something different. I didn't want the "traditional" job. I wanted to do what I love. I want to teach everyone about yoga.
It was the sutras that made me realize it was okay to listen to my heart. This was my journey, and it doesn't need to look like anyone else.
I got stuck in a lot of comparison games.
Constantly not thinking that I was worthy because my life didn't look like someone else.
Well, you know what? It's not going to!
Your journey is going to be your own. Your experiences are meant to happen to you for you to learn and grow from them.
It may be a different path, but I am glad that I have stepped out and decided to grow this business of mine.
I want to help others.
I want others to realize and value their potential.
I want you to know that you don't need to live in that mental prison.
I want you to know that there are so many natural tools that can drastically change your life.
I can't give yoga all the credit for my sobriety, although it gets a lot.
I do credit my amazing support system.
But I also had to look into some other natural remedies to help with some emotions that did rise, that I would suppress with alcohol. I had many moments of loneliness when all my friends went to the bar and I stayed home because I couldn't be around them drinking.
I have never been one for pills.
Well let me rephrase that. I wasn't one for pills being prescribed to me. But if it was a good "high" I'll try it.
But for medication- I have always wanted to go a holistic approach first. So I got introduced to essential oils from the yoga studio and I was in love! I would have to say it is definitely an obsession. So check out my "Oil Obsession" page to hear all about my story and how you can get some of those magic bottles into your life.
However, most recently, after quitting my last nasty habit, cigarettes, I needed something that was going to get rid of the edge. That angry edge, that I can only describe as "road rage". That's when I found CBD coffee. I needed something that I could take in the morning and that would fit into my routine, and guess what? Coffee fits right in.
I'm 3 weeks into my regime and I feel amazing. I have never felt this way before. I have never been able to quiet my voice for this long and as easily. I have confidence and excitement about my business and growing. Check out the "Best CBD" page to learn all about the company I highly trust and how to get the products.
There are tools out there! If you are struggling and aren't quite happy, there are things that you can do. You do not need to live like that.
We have freedoms. We have men and women willing to risk their lives to protect those freedoms of ours. We should value and honor that by loving others and ourselves. Loving ourselves to live up to our potential. To not be afraid to succeed and follow our dreams.
We have freedoms. Figure out what you want: and go it- no matter what!